“I hate my fans, too. I hate being famous. I hate my job,” Bourdain, who killed himself aged 61, wrote in his last texts to Busia-Bourdain. “I am lonely and living in constant uncertainty.”
The book covers in detail aspects of Bourdain’s early life, as well as his journey to becoming a freewheeling New York chef, a writer and later a gifted television personality and documentary maker.
The biography also details the tumultuous relationship with Italian actress Asia Argento. “I find myself being hopelessly in love with this woman,” he wrote to Busia-Bourdain. His last days and hours were, according to the book, dedicated to back and forth communications with Argento in the aftermath of the publication of images of the actress dancing with French reporter Hugo Clément in the lobby of the Hotel de Russie in Rome, where she and Bourdain had stayed together.
“I am okay,” he texted her. “I am not spiteful. I am not jealous that you have been with another man. I do not own you. You are free. As I said. As I promised. As I truly meant. But you were careless. You were reckless with my heart. My life,” Bourdain wrote to her, according to the book.
It was the next day that Bourdain took his own life in a room at Le Chambard, a boutique hotel in Kaysersberg, France, at the age of 61. He was discovered by his close friend Eric Ripert.